1 week on 7

This concludes the 8th day of my 7 experience. I will not for a second have anyone thinking I have done this perfectly. I have cheated, willfully, 5 times. 3 in one day and the other two were because of baked goods I stupidly made at home for the kids. To try to survive I bought a bunch of stuff I normally don't from the grocery store today so as not to torture myself. I don't like prepackaged snacks, lunches or desserts, so I loaded up on them and the kids thought they had died and gone to heaven when they got home from school. Today I had the hunch that the only way I was going to get through 7 is to lighten up on stuff that doesn't matter in the big picture. Buying my kids a bunch of premade snacks would usually fit in the category of Big Picture but this week, it's just a means to help me out. I don't think I will cheat on 7 again for awhile, and if I do I hope it's a mistake or I have a valid reason. I realized that the reason I keep cheating is because it's hard for me to break the cycle of feeling guilty about what I eat. Not eating any bad foods, left me feeling good, but there was a void because of my constant cycle of eat bad stuff, feel bad, tell God I will eat better, recognize I don't have the kind of self control I give the impression that I do, and back to eating bad stuff after my penance ( usually the first and second parts of the day) wears off. So THAT was a huge AHA moment I wasn't expecting.