It's drizzling, I was in the car for over 3 hours and I didn't exercise today. All of these factors I now know draw me to food. I took a nap under the covers ( I never get under the covers for a nap, as that would look like I was sleeping in the middle of the day and therefore must be a lazy mom) on returning home from a day trip with Kirb. It was one hour before the kids got home from school and I didn't know what to do with myself because I so wanted a snack and coffee with cream. Surprisingly upon awakening my head was clear and I was good to get on with the day. I've spent the last hour and a half making a chicken dinner with veggies that are not on my list. I will have to add some spinach to the mix and disregard the crispy peppers and carrots. For a quick snack for my kids I pulled out the frozen oatmeal cookie dough. Oh, the power of smell. Why oh why would a person who is doing 7 pull out homemade cookie dough, when there are perfectly good Oreos that I hate in the pantry to give my after school snack monsters. To make it a bit worse, they wanted the Oreos, NOT the homemade delicious Pioneer Woman Oatmeal Crisps. I stared them down and stuffed all the cookies in a zip lock and made my son take them to the neighbors who unfortunately are not home, so the cookies are still staring at me. I had to stare at them while I made dinner and finally I grabbed one and took a bite. Not worth it. Being it's only day 3 the guilt set in quick, my stomach did a flip and I knew Mariah had done no such thing this early on. My lack of self control is embarrassing. God quickly reminded me this experiment is about me and Him and that he forgives me and to just drink my black coffee and get over it. Yes, I'm still drinking coffee. Black coffee.
On a very positive note, I am learning to love the small grumblings going on in my tummy. I know I have eaten enough and it has been good for me, my tummy however is talking back. It's kinda fun to know I've done something different and my body knows it.
I enjoyed this a little too much. I am always the one to cave before you!!
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